Blue Dreams

"I've been alive since time began
Not beast, not god, and yet not man
I am the music and the dance
I am the piper who enchants
So loose all ties to mortal kind
My pipes shall play within thy mind
I shall be thy lover"

"Creature of the Wood"

08 October 2005

Oooooookaaaaay.

So this is what's running through my head right now.

Tomorrow I'm going to my cousin, Jacquelyn's, bridal shower. Now, I'm happy she's getting married and all, and I'm happy she's going to be a mom (baby's due in June), but I'm SO not happy with my mom's reaction to all this. All I've been hearing from her is whining about how she, Jacquelyn's aunt and godmother, has not been included in the wedding planning process one bit, and foretellings of doom regarding the marriage: "This is *not* how you get a man to marry you! You don't get pregnant 'on accident' and then *tell* your boyfriend that you're getting married! The fact that it took 8 years, her getting pregnant, and then her telling Tom that they were getting married for him to pull his head out of his ass and actually propose to her is a bad sign, that's all I'm saying."

Now, while I agree with some of what she has to say (8 years is too long to wait, Tom, seriously), some of it's kinda annoying. I mean, how often do we really see Jac and Auntie Carole and Uncle Mark and all them, Mom? About as often as they see us, and lemme tell you, even though Auntie Carole's my godmother, I'm not sure she'll be involved in my wedding plans, by virtue of how often I see (or don't see) her. How well does she know me, really? She's gotten *one* home-run as far as Christmas gifts go in the past three-four years. One. Doesn't that tell you something about how well she knows me? And since we see them as often as they see us, and I don't think I'd let Auntie Carole in on my wedding (if I ever got married anyway).

Now, as for her doomful foretellings.... *sigh* I think most of it's just coming from the fact that her first marriage failed so horribly. Now, I do agree with some of what she feels--8 years is *definitely* too long to wait, and the woman should never say, "Hey honey, guess what? I'm pregnant. Oh, and since I don't want to have a bastard child, we *are* getting married. So, I'm gonna call up the girls I want in my bridal party, and you can go about getting a ring so we can be 'officially' engaged, kay?"--which is what Jac did. *bites lip* Yeesh. It's just kinda annoying, both to think about and to listen to my mom bitch about. I personally wish Jacquelyn and Tom the best, and since I'll be driving by the time she's had the baby, I *totally* want to babysit for them. Hehe.

Well, that's all, I guess.

Ciao for now,

~Chii-chan