Okay, I'm about to totally disgust 'Quin beyond repair.
Oh, and can anyone tell me what "Te amo" means?
Oh, and can anyone tell me what "Te amo" means?
22 September 2005
21 September 2005
Oh my gods I've had one of the longest days of my life.
I don't expect anyone to understand, but please, just bear with me.
I spent today being out of my house for about 11 hours and 35 minutes. That's hard enough, considering I was out of my house for nearly ten hours yesterday, and probably around the same amount of time Monday, but the fact that I, a Cancerian, a natural homebody, was stuck out of her house for nearly half a fucking day, spending about 4 and a half of them in an enviroment that was just too overwhelming for her little ADD mind, has pushed me over the edge for tonight. I think I've had my official breakdown for the night. I mean, I love the Inmans, but I don't understand how anyone can handle that much mental stimulation at once. I had at least four auditory and/or visual things going on around me at any given moment when I was with them, and then on top of that, I had Mrs. Inman trying to talk to me, getting info for where I live, how to get there, and my life in general. I'm sorry, but that's just too much going on at once! I've grown up in a quiet, one-at-a-time house, and on top of that, ADD people can't handle all that stimulation at once!! It's just too much!! By the time I got home, I was so ready to just break down and cry and cry and that's what I'm doing now because it was just too much for me to handle all at once and I just wanted to be HOME for the last two hours of it and it was just so hard..... I just wanted to be home.... I just want to stay here, go around to every room and hug the walls, then break down in my room and cry (more than I'm doing already, from the joy of finally being home and the release from all that stimulation)....... Gods...... today was horrible for me.......... so hard........is it so bad to just want to be *home*?
I don't expect anyone to understand, but please, just bear with me.
I spent today being out of my house for about 11 hours and 35 minutes. That's hard enough, considering I was out of my house for nearly ten hours yesterday, and probably around the same amount of time Monday, but the fact that I, a Cancerian, a natural homebody, was stuck out of her house for nearly half a fucking day, spending about 4 and a half of them in an enviroment that was just too overwhelming for her little ADD mind, has pushed me over the edge for tonight. I think I've had my official breakdown for the night. I mean, I love the Inmans, but I don't understand how anyone can handle that much mental stimulation at once. I had at least four auditory and/or visual things going on around me at any given moment when I was with them, and then on top of that, I had Mrs. Inman trying to talk to me, getting info for where I live, how to get there, and my life in general. I'm sorry, but that's just too much going on at once! I've grown up in a quiet, one-at-a-time house, and on top of that, ADD people can't handle all that stimulation at once!! It's just too much!! By the time I got home, I was so ready to just break down and cry and cry and that's what I'm doing now because it was just too much for me to handle all at once and I just wanted to be HOME for the last two hours of it and it was just so hard..... I just wanted to be home.... I just want to stay here, go around to every room and hug the walls, then break down in my room and cry (more than I'm doing already, from the joy of finally being home and the release from all that stimulation)....... Gods...... today was horrible for me.......... so hard........is it so bad to just want to be *home*?
