I'm so full of hate.
Yeah..... I am.
And I'm a terrible person for it, too. I mean, it's total bullshit, why I'm so full of hate. It really is. I mean, Nichole....I CAN'T FUCKING STAND HER!!! But I've finally figured out why. *Finally*. She stole my two best friends, Mykal and Fiona, and all I ever hear from her is "*bitch bitch bitch* My life is so horrible *whine whine whine* Nobody likes me *moan moan moan* Oh, I've got it so hard", and it just drives me up the fucking wall! The only reason I deal with her when I'm around her is because my TWO BEST FRIENDS SHE STOLE FROM ME seem to find something in her that they like. I can't fucking imagine what redeeming qualities she could *possibly* have, but apparently, she's got some. Enough for Mykal to *still* like her, even after they dated and she broke his heart. And I mean *like* like, not "like as a friend", which he did anyway. It all just pisses me off! And on top of her stealing my friends and constantly bemoaning how horrible her life is (at least, whenever *I'm* around her), something about her just makes me go AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGH!!!! And you wanna know the real kicker? I can't help but hate myself for hating her. Not because she's too sweet or anything to hate (we already covered my opinion of her), but because I just *do*! The only person I've ever truly hated had done horrible things to me, completely horrible things, and Nichole has done reletively nothing. Okay, so in my mind, stealing my two best friends isn't exactly "nothing", but I still feel like an evil fucking bitch for hating her. And of course, I had managed to move a bit beyond such thoughts, until Mykal decided to inform me that he and Nichole are more than likely going to date again. That is what really pisses me off about all this. She's already stolen Fiona away from me, and now she's dragging Mykal back into her grasp as well. I FUCKING HATE IT!!!!
On top of those oh so lovely epiphanies, I registered for Senior year today. Let's see, I'll need a 7th period (whoop dee fucking doo), but oh well, I'm doing Independent Study for the first semester of high school. It *sucks* because I finally got a drawing course and Creative Writing, and I've known that I was going to be dropping from UHS since before the school year ended in May. And you know what else I realized? Since I've been so caught up in doing my independent study summer school work, I COMEPLETELY FORGOT TO DO MR. CHAING'S SUMMER ASSIGNMENT. Wanna know how badly I'm kicking myself at the moment? Pretty fucking badly.
Then I got picked up from OFY, and my 'rents made me drive ('cause I really need the practice hours). I was gonna take them home. Cool, I figure. They won't take me on the freeway, 'cause Mom said last night that I'm not ready for freeway driving yet. So what do we end up accidentally doing? Going on the freeway, of course. It was for a short time, but I did pretty well. Going 65 mph when you're used to not really exceeding 40 feels really fast, and that's the *slow* speed on the freeway. *sigh*
Well, that's my life so far. Ciao.
~Chii-chan