I fucking hate mornings.

Despise them.

Hate them with a passion.

Especially when I have to wake up for them.

In the morning.

Before I'm fully rested.

For school.

Which I missed anyway today.

.....

Fucking hate mornings. Fucking hate them.

Always have, always will.

I take too long to wake up anyway. 2-3 hours, generally.

I am not what you'd call a "morning person".

I am not what you'd call a "daytime person".

I am not what you'd even call a "people person".

I am not what you'd call a "I like my period because I get mad mood swings right before and shitty ass huge cramps on the first day" person.

I am not what you'd call a "romantic person".

I am not what you'd call a "very incredibly happy all the time person".

I am not what you'd call a "I like this guy, but he just dated one of my best friends, but I'll still date him anyway and move far too fast than what feels right for me in any relationship other than friendship" person.

As a matter of fact, I am more of a "I'm going to talk to said friend about this situation because I don't want to lose her friendship in exchange for a possible boyfriend who just happens to be 19" person.

I am also more of a "If I don't end up with said 19 year old, I still have a guy from Faire who I love as a friend and will probably end up having a drunken fling with when I turn 18" person.

I am definitely more of a "psycho person" than say... a "nice" or "sane person".

I am also a person running out of time on the internet, so I will be a person who will post more morning-hating info later.

I am at Cat's house right now. I'm gonna go with her to see her friend, Dan, then drag him back here. Whoopee! I met him yesterday, and we really hit it off, but friendly-like. And I saw Shrek 2. It was so damn funny, and I loved Puss. He was...welll..... a sexy, sexy feline. Mrow.

Cat has a new puppy, a collie named Cloud. He's so cute! ^_^ And playful. Hooray for puppies (because doggies seem more willing to hunt me than play)!

Uhmmm...oh yeah! Brad said that this one idea I had for grounding my energy was really good, so I'm going to do it. Okay, this is it--I have to ground into water (contains the energy better than earth, and it's easier for me to do), so I was thinking of getting a small flowerpot or something, fill it with soil, and whenever I need to ground my energy, I just pour some water into it, release as needed, and leave. Voila! I've grounded my energy, the water evaporates, and no plant is harmed by my energy (cause I'm sure if I were to ground into a plant pot that has a plant in it, the plant would probably die). Well, I'm gonna cut it off here; I don't want to encroach any more on the family's internet and whatnot.

Okay, in my english class in summer school today, I had an "issue". See, this .... *sigh* BITCH is the only way to describe her, Brittany Heudel (or some strange last name like that), is in my class now (oh gods help me). We were talking about poetry, and we were discussing the Robert Frost poem "Nothing Gold Can Stay". I start to give my take on it (being one of the only students who ever bothers to participate thus far), and I see Brittany sigh and turn around to face her friends, like I'm saying something stupid, or I'm just being annoying. So I turn and give her a dark look. She doesn't turn, so in a slightly quiet moment, so I knew she'd hear, I say, "Exscuse you, do you have a problem with what I'm saying?" A black girl who sits just beyond her thought I was talking to her, and started to get annoyed, so I said, "No, I'm talking to HER!" and point to Brittany. The two of them start to basically gang up on me--"She didn't have to make such a big deal out of it"--and my teacher did a little thing of "Body language is 90% of language at all, and when you're a teenager, you just naturally think that everything is about you." Now, that partially is true, but the thing is, Brittany has had a problem with me for some unknown reason (maybe because I exist--damned if I'll ever *really* know) for some time, and seeing her out of the corner of my eye sigh heavily and turn away when I try to explain my take on a poem in class makes me think, just slightly, for just a moment, that she's sighing and turning away because of that inexplicable reason that makes her dislike me. I probably should have just let it go, but I'm really sick of humans like *her* acting like I'm some sort of disease or something. Today (it being a morning and me not being in the grandest of moods), I just decided to make my thoughts and opinions known. And maybe, from now on, I just won't give my opinion aloud in class. There's only two people who care even slightly about my take on things--the teacher and Crystal, so why bother speaking aloud when they're the only ones that will listen? I'm SOOOOOOOOO sorry, Brittany, that I'M ACTUALLY FUCKING ADDING SOMETHING TO THE CLASS, YOU STUPID WHORE. GODS FORBID I USE MY INTELLECT FOR SOMETHING USEFUL. GO GET YOURSELF FUCKED, SEE WHO GIVES A SHIT, 'CAUSE I CERTAINLY WONT YOU BITCH. LEAVE ME ALONE AND DON'T REACT IF I'M THAT FUCKING ANNOYING.

sorry....I had to say that. There's more, but I'll just siphon it off when I ground my energy today. That's all.

AX IS COMING UP AND I'M SOOOO EXCITED ABOUT IT!!!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!

^_^ I started summer school today, and Crystal and I are in the same first period class. We're sitting next to each other, of course, and the energy is great for me. Nobody else is near enough to taint it in any way, so I'm just sucking energy offa Crystal. Since she's always happy and beaming and just full of wonderfulness, that makes me constantly beaming and happy and full of wonderfulness (oh, the one perk of being an empath). Another perk is when I feel that people are annoyed with me, or hate me or something, because I make that energy into something dangerously playful, and I get this evil-ass little grin on my face, and I start to giggle insanely....(I picked this up loooong ago, years before I figured I should even be Pagan).

I read the second Hellsing manga, and of course, it was great! I giggled like a madman throughout the whole thing. And Mykal tried some of my fried rice at lunch today, and he liked it! I told him I'd bring him some tomorrow (I'm making some tonight, so yeah). Tonight I'm using the flavoring my mom bought at the grocery store--this batch was too flavorless, despite the soy sauce I added. Still good, but kinda blah.

I'm taking the video game villain quiz right now... I can't wait to see what I get.

Brad hasn't e-mailed me back *sniff*, but that means I'll have one from him for sure tomorrow. ^_^ Happiness (is a warm gun (bang bang shoot shoot))!!


From "Final Fantasy 7"
What Video Game Villain Are You?

Yay I'm Sexy--I mean Sephy!!! ^o^

Anywhoo.... Yeah. I only have a few minutes left, so I'm just gonna post and look at this in all its spiffyness. Maybe Brad will have e-mailed me back, too. ^_^

Christyna
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