I think I'm starting to feel "that" emotion again. Yeah, that's right. I think I have a crush
on someone. I don't like this feeling. It's no fun, and besides, it distracts me from the
important things in life: doing homework, ignoring my brother and his friend, denying my brother
and his girlfriend have sex, memorizing lines for theatre, that kind of stuff. This is the
funny thing: I can't figure out *who* I've got the crush *on*. Weird, huh? I got a crush, but
I don't even know who I like. Odd. I mean, it's not my *first* love/love interest, it's not my
friend, it's not my friend's friend, and it's most certainly *NOT* my first/only boyfriend/ex.
So who the hell is it? I dunno...I mean, it *might* be my friend's friend, but...it could also
be my friend, too. My first boyfriend's just too......bah for me to *like* again. I'm
confuuuuuuuuused!!! And if it's not them, then who? I'm not the type of pathetic fangirl who
gets crushes on dreamy anime` guys ((*Marron sobs in background*)), and my heart has been all
but DRY when it comes to romantic issues. Perhaps I've just started to become infatuated with
the idea of finding someone who loves me...or something. I mean, that *might* be it, but who
can be sure of anything these days?

"Can I eat her?"

Sorry, that quote just popped in my head. I had to say that. My brother's friend is gonna be
staying here for a few days. Joy. I rather *like* having an empty house to come to when I get
home, doing stuff until Mom gets home, and not having a Facist-dictator-esque older brother
around until evening, when I'm all laid back and couldn't care less what he commands me to do.
My mom knows he's a jerk and stuff, but...there's not much she can do. I want him to MOVE THE
F**K OUT SO BAD!!!!! I HATE having him around! I don't hate *him*, persay, I just HATE THE WAY
HE THINKS HE CAN F**KING ORDER ME AROUND ALL THE TIME!!!! He literally tries to control every
aspect of my life. For example: We share a room. The bedroom light is on his side, with the
computer desk between us. Say it's 10:30, and I'm so tired, I just *gotta* sleep. He, however,
just got home from his friend's and wants to read a while to calm his nerves. I tell him I'm
gonna be a major bitch if I don't get some rest, and he only says, "So? You always are." He
comes home today, I'm online, checking a few things. First thing out of his mouth after the
monosyllabic greeting? "Could you try to *not* be online for eight hours today?" I don't answer
him, and why should I? When I continue to type a response to a post in my avidgamers site, he
snarls, "Can you get this done *before* four o'clock?" ((Bear in mind, this is at about 3:15, no
more than five minutes after I got home.)) In the same tone, I reply, "*Yes*." I hate him.
He's such a jerk. Sure, when it comes down to it, I'd save him if he needed saving, and I'm
partially sure he'd do the same, but dammit! it's times like these that make me want to just
knife his fascist ass!!! I want to have him move OUT, and very, *very* far away. Or at least
to such a location that reaching us ((My mom and I)) would be a slight difficulty. But
*nooOOOOoooo*, he's still seventeen, so I have to wait a year before he moves out. I at least
want my own room again. And DSL, so that he can't sit there and say "You're online too much",
"Get off, I'm missing phone calls", or "Dammit, bitch, just stay offline!". He's hardly home
*anyway*, so why should I bother? Mom and I have actually taken to calling him 'The Rude Tenent'
when he's not home. Me in particular, so Mom knows when I'm pissed at him. Mom suffers from
the 'Oh, but he's my *child*' syndrome, in which she can be mad at him, agree that he's a jerk,
laugh at my calling him 'Rude Tenent' and agree, but never call him that or truly be aware of
the asshole her first 'child' has become. It pisses me off to an obvious degree.

Men are fucking pigs. The large majority serve no other purpose than to piss off the women who,
by some odd male logic, are inferior and have to serve their every whim. When I say "Yes,
master," to my brother, you *know* I'm annoyed. The thing that bothers me the most is that all
the men who are the BIGGEST assholes get all the sweet, innocent, darling girls for girlfriends.
This *also* applies to my brother and his girl. His g/f is probably the cutest, sweetest blonde
in the world, a sophomore, and she and I get along like old friends. He, on the other hand, is
a rude, garish, disgusting, self-proclaimed "punk", who, for the past *counts* 3-4 years has been
concerned only with getting laid. Now that he's found a girlfriend who puts out, he gets it (or
any degree of it) as often as he can. Pervert. Asshole. Jackass. Hmmm, which one decribes
him best? Ooo, how about 'Aho-hentai'?! 'Aho' meaning 'idiot' or 'moron', and implies mental
retardation, and 'hentai', meaning 'pervert'! Yes, I think that's my brother. 'My brother, the
rude tenent, the retarded pervert, sexaholic asshole of the world.' Yep. That's him.

Well, I vented. Thanks for dealing with it.

And Mikey, Donn...sorry if my darker side disturbs you.

((*Note* This was originally written in a text document, so that's why there's odd endings for the lines))

Supah freak, supah freak, she's supah freakay
Oh-oh-oh-OH-OH-oh-oh

......

Okay, one of my million moments of insanity right there....hehe. KU!! I forgot what that means. *shrug* Oh well. Hmmm...more latah; homework and the like to be done.

Baaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiii.........

Bwaaaaaaaaaah!!!

I can't view mah page!!!

Internet hates me!!!!

>.< *sniffle**sob*

I'll have to beg Mikey for help.....

*ends totally pointless message*



*tries the 'publish' button*

*feels incredibly stupid*

^_^;; Eh-heh.... \/\/4745|-|I \/\/4 B4|<4......

Okay, so it took me long enough, but I *finally* got one of these things made. It turned me down a zillion times because the URL I came up with wasn't original, I guess. *sniff* So yeah...not much really going on. Karate private lesson in about an hour...got the cutest, sweetest, most adorable little ball of fluff a.k.a. my kitten on Friday, and now I'm his mommy. I don't mind; I like taking care of another life. Well, an *animal* life, at that...human lives, until they reach about four years, are incredibly difficult to handle. My friend Mikey loaned me his MP3 player on Friday...I know you said not to think of it as 'special treatment', luv, but it helped me get past my damn whateverthehellisbotheringmythroatnow. And to the other Mykal...I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER AND EVER WHEN RENN FAIRE IS OVER!!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! So yeah....a*hem*...moving on....I *am* totally insane, what was your first clue? I'm also a new fan of MegaTokyo. XD So yeah...I will break into occasional spats of L33t. Great language, but Largo is...well, amusing, to say the least. Have you ever had a kitten climb up your leg because you had pants on? It's okay, until they continue and poke your boob with their little claws. *gives her kitten dark look* At least we're *sure* it's male now... My sensei loves cats. He really does. I think he fell in love with my kitten on Saturday. ^_^ Total kickass. Hehe. Well....uhmm...more about me...I'm a Cancer, SWF (lol I've always wanted to say that), and a freshman. In what, I will not say, though I'm pretty sure it'll become obvious as time goes along. I love to write and draw and act, and when it comes to kicking ass...*grin* Well, I'm fairly fond of that too. And I loooooove animals. Cats especially. I'm afraid of any bird bigger than a cockatiel in a cage...especially when let loose. Don't ask, for I shall never tell. I can handle dogs, but I'm more a cat person, and I also like horses. And dolphins. And orcas. XD SeaWorld, I thank thee....Oh, and I'm a major anti-war individual. I hate it. Mindless bloodshed, atomic war, bayonets spearing a person through the middle....somehow, that doesn't appeal to me. Of course, I have to be surrounded by the f***ing moron War Hawks in my history class, so....*vomits* The very thought of war makes me physically ill, so yeah. No fun. And I LOOOOOOOOOVE Anime`!!! LOVE IT LOVE IT LOVE IT!!! *huggles plushies of dreamy anime` guys* And I like my music, too. Writing it, playing it, listening to it...any will do. And I like to sing, but that doesn't mean I'm any good. Ooooo, and to test my writing abilities (and up 'em some), I RP (role-play) a LOT! I even have my own avidgamers site. XD And I'm pretty good with computers, too. *nodnod* Don't ask me to fix one, I just like workin' with 'em. ^_^ Hmmm....back to anime` (see why it's 'Harlequin's RANDOM musings'?), one of my favorites, without a doubt, is Slayers. Lina Inverse is the best!!! Oooooo, and the vice-prez of the anime` club is soooooooooooooooo cute!!! *huggles a plushie of him* Not like it makes any difference if he finds out...I'm pretty sure he knows me and all mah female homes think he's the epitome of Asian cuteness. Speaking of Asians....I'm in a possible love triangle!! Names will be withheld, but I think it's cool. So yeah. This is 'Quin. Kinda. 'Quin's more brash, outgoing, and will say anything. This is the person who created the drinking, gambling, inhibition-less outlaw, not the outlaw herself. *shrug* Next time, I think I'll practice what I barely know of HTML. Hmmm...yeah, sounds like fun.